Fear.

"Be it the day or the middle of the night,
I hear fear breathe in me...
It clutches my heart tighter every second.
I see thirsty shadows...
Wandering all about me.
Waiting for me to kneel in front of them.
Waiting for my downfall.
I look around in desperate need,
For something to hold on to.
All I see is darkness,
Feeding upon me.
It's a mixed feeling-
Not knowing whether you are scared or strong.
You don't even know what you want.
Whether to hang on or to let go
But there is nothing to hang on to."

Yet she fools herself everyday;
Dwells on false hopes and prays.
Things won't change ever,
That's the reality that confronts her.

That feeling when you drown.

I breathe.
Every sec.
Without thinking;
I don't give it importance.
I don't realise,
Until I suffocate.
Nothing fills my body at this point except fear;
I panic.
I would do anything to come up...
To not be engulfed by this monster...
Which gave me peace and happiness just a moment ago.
My feet paddle,
Struggling to come up.
My hands slapping the water,
Or waiting for someone to grab them.
I want to scream,
But I don't.
The water enters my nostrils.
I suffocate even more.
I want to come up.
I'd give up anything to come up.
It scares me,
To not be able to live again.
I want to live.
But I drown.
I go deeper.
Without wanting to.
Now I am still.
As much I can be.
There is no hope.
I think my brain has stopped thinking.
It is just there..
It has given up....
But I haven't reached the bottom yet;
I want to touch the ocean bed.
So that I can muster up the courage to jump,
I want to be able to float again.

The Meeting Place.

He comes to me.
I love it.
I hear him talk.
He is music to my ears...
Sometimes he's angry;
Other times, calm.
I wonder whether it's me reflecting him,
Or him shining back me...
I see myself in him;
He looks at me.
And we stare...
Unblinking.
Both lost in he blue hue of the sky.
The stars make the moment magical for us.
They burn to light us up.
We stay in a darkness unseen.
Coldness wrapped around us.
He kisses my feet...
The wave.
But he takes away a part of me with him,
Into the deep dark ocean.
Every time.